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I don't know why I didn't make a journal here, people probably actually read THESE journals since no one seems to read mine. to you who do, I appreciate the fact that you understand that a LOT of questions get answered before they're even asked.

so, as mentioned in my journal, my website is down as of three months from when I had them suspend it. YES, it was ME who made the decision, but unfortunately they could only give me three months without deleting everything. I estimate it should be back around august 5th.

the reason is that, because of my financial crisis, yes, crisis, I had to cut out the least important expenses. the problem is, the website is still very important to me, and I know it's important to you too. *sigh* to y'all who're still in school and live lives you think is horrible, life gets worse. I'm not gonna sugar coat it and be all like, "it's better and easier when you're an adult!" no, it's not. only upper class gets it easy. but even if you're mid-upper class, you're gonna struggle.

you may think I'm being negative, but you know what, I HAD prepared for this day because I saw my parents go through it. I said "I don't want to be like them," so I started saving early and was quite stingy with my money. then... and I blame myself, not you guys, xmas before last, I sent xmas presents to MANY of you, and I didn't exactly follow my stingy ways. I admit I should not have spent so much and simply sent cards like I did last xmas, but I wanted to show that I really cared because I kept being accused of a selfish liar who only cared about herself. yeah, well, I may not be selfish, but there are times when you DO need to think about yourself, and that was one of those times. I made a poor decision, and I am paying for it.

"they say money isn't everything, but I'd like to see you live without it."

"Reitanna, why don't you have a new job?" something happened to be in the last few month of working at walgreens while I was getting mentally harassed by one of the assistant managers. it gotso bad, I had to take a leave of absence and was required to go to therapy that was provided by the company. "Reitanna, didn't you do something about it?" we tried, even my boss, but the part that kicks my ass is the fact that it was all verbal, and the security cameras don't record audio. it wasn't enough that EVERYONE hated the manager, even customers, but the down side to employee protection is that it's TOO stable and people take advantage of it.

I don't know what triggered it, I don't know WHEN it was triggered, but the day I quit my job, my minor agoraphobia I've had all my life grew exponentially. all my life I'd try to make excuses not to leave the house, not to talk to people, and I couldn't even gather the bravery to order for myself at a restaurant until I was 14. I tried, though, I indeed went out with friends as often as possible because of what I had waiting at home. it grew a little bigger when I was a teen in certain situations, and that's why I could NEVER go anywhere without a friend. if at the mall, I had to make sure someone was within sight. I even would cling to them if a large number of people were close.

but I was having fun going out with friends, I had a great time at yaoi-con and anime expo. I loved going to the mall and all that shit. so between 1 and 10, 10 being the highest level, my agoraphobia fluctuated between 1 and 2. it'd get bad in certain situations where I didn't have a choice to be with people I trusted, like "family" events and outings, but otherwise, I was doing great. my job at walgreens also really helped me socialize better and realize that not EVERYONE on earth is evil.

but you can only take so much, and during the days the harassment got worse, so did I, and the day I quit was the day EVERYTHING turned around, and I mean everything. and fear of death or pain was GONE, even the phobia of needles I've had ALL MY LIFE. being cut on the finger tips still makes me kinda woozy, but I think that's because my sense of touch there is quite sensitive. I'm not going to lie, if mike had gone to vegas that day like he was supposed to, I wouldn't be here. but god seems to have other plans for me, so mike was home. bully. "stop being negative." sorry.

I honestly didn't mean to go on a tangent, but the reason I can't get another job is because something snapped, and now I'm terrified of the outside world. it's bad enough that I still have to go grocery shopping or the doctor, but if there's a way to avoid it, I avoid it. I even keep my phone turned off 24/7.

"why aren't you making stuff for etsy?" honestly? a few reasons: I feel that it's not good enough, I haven't had much inspiration for crafts, and um... well, you need money to make stuff to make money. funny how the world works, huh? fuck fuck fuckitty fuck fuck.

I honestly can't say "I hate my life," because I do have a plethora of VERY good things in my life, including you guys. I can say, "I hate the factors of life." some of you may say "get over it," and that's why I'm keeping out a lot of details, because people don't like what they don't want to hear. I let my heart out to my friends on the deep web because THEY won't judge me or think I'm messed up. I probably said enough here to attract the many trolls that watch the group and my DA for the sheer purpose of waiting for me to slip up, kinda like paparazzi do to celebrities who usually are good people. get one pic of them in the middle of a blink, and they're drunk off their ass.

wow, that was a long explanation for why my website is down... sorry 'bout that. but if I'm lucky, i'll be able to fund it after a couple months. if you truly want to help, you may donate here:…

and don't be like that one person and accuse me of begging, because there are plenty of people who ask to donate to them and their websites. the site where the slender games were able to be downloaded? asked for donations. but this isn't "donate or i'll be super sad." no, this is YOUR decision, and I'm not gonna judge anyone for anything... except accusing me of the previous statement. those of you who have faith in my honesty know, okay? I'm upset, and anyone in my situation would be. I'm human.

allow me to give a bit of positivity. tacos. ole.
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This is a club for the Reitannites. A Reitannite is a devoted fan of the awesome sauce deviant ~Reitanna-Seishin.

The following is a excerpt from Reitanna's journal entry titled "Who's a Reitannite."

"I'd very much like to know, now that I have aquired so many watchers in the passed two months. But first I am sure you want to know.... what IS a Reitannite?

Well, long long ago, I started a Youtube channel. I gathered a fair ammount of subscribers.... and then the account was deleted for copywright infringement. This was before they gave fair warnings. Then I set up a second one (cause you can't keep ME down biotch!) This time, I got many subscribers and many people watching and commenting and knowing quite a bit about me and what I do. That lasted for a few years... until a couple months ago, THAT channel was delorted. Then I made the one I currently have. I managed to find old viewers, and old viewers managed to find me. I've also aquired a small number of NEW regular viewers. But since this channel is relatively new, it's still not quite up to speed. All it needs is time.

So I started a cartoon. It was my 21st birthday and wanted to put in a short animation. So I drew on paper a cartoon of me throwing Goldypus onto a stool and saying, "it's Goldypus!" The design I gave for cartoon me was just something I threw together, but it stuck. Since then, the art style I used has become my official "Reitanna" cartoon. Certain people were thrown into the cartoon, as well as new characters. Not only that, but I adapt a lot of the fictional world into my videos, such as Goldypus and Exploding Bunny. I even started making t-shirts because a few people said that would be cool. I don't have many because I'm so immersed in "Playing with Fire."

So basically I consider a "Reitannite" a devoted fan of mine. I liked to give them a name because my watchers, subscribers, whatever you just so happen to be... are important to me. It fills my heart with warmth when I see a comment on either DA or Youtube from my regulars, and it also boosts my extremely low self esteem, which Mike says NEEDS a boost. I like to be on good terms with all of you, answering your comments in a way that hopefully shows you how happy I was to read what you had to say. I can say that, technically, I have a second life on the interwebz, but not in a you're-a-loser-and-you-live-in-your-mom's-basement-playing-MMORPGs-all-day-and-stuffing-your-face-with-junkfood way.

So, what exactly MAKES one a Reitannite? I'd say you'd have most (if not all) of these characteristics:
-you watch me on Youtube
-you follow me on DA
-you've read my Wordpress blogs (this is a very small one though, cause blogs are obsolete)
-you've possibly considered buying a t-shirt (again, small because not everyone wants a t-shirt)
-you know names of a lot of my cartoon or comic characters, whether it's from the "Reitanna" cartoon or others
-you've quoted lines from my old dubs
-you've listened to my music (again, small one since my type of music is an aquired taste)
-you were sad when Goldypus died
-you've made me or are going to make me some fanart of my creations
-your favorite after dinner snack is a super deluxe bacon hat
-la la la la lee lee loo la

So if any of these describe you, then you may consider yourself a Reitannite. Of course, you may consider yourself one even if you do NOT have a super deluxe bacon hat. Because I sure don't. XD

I just realized that almost every paragraph in this journal starts with "so."

Obie kaybie, what I'm getting at is... ARE YOU A REITANNITE? Would you like to become one? It's up to you! All you have to do is... be a fan. Don't just familiarize yourself with me, but step into my world. Fear the terror of Exploding Bunny, pray for Goldypus' and OMFG Dinosaur's revival with the Dragonballs, fear the unpredictableness of Annatier, fall in love with Koda, help Chickie with his cocaine problem, allow yourself to be confused by the words of Sticky the Female Mad Man, get the craving to kill Shmoo, pray that Sempai comes back, and most of all, (this is to my ZADR freaks,) LOVE MY COMIC. Because "Playing with Fire" is pretty much gonna be the project I will be working on for months to come. Cartoons will have to wait, even though I have many amazing ideas.

Zis iz all up to you, the peoples. I believe my ZADR freaks are the ones mostly reading this journal because there's just so many of you, it amazes and delights me. Of course, you have a life, I have a life, and that random person sitting on their porch outside has a life, though his doesn't conscern us. Your obsessions are devoted to your GREATEST obsession, mine being ZADR. WHAT IS YOURS? Only you know. Only you canpreventforestfiresokay I should really be working on page 21 now. I've talked enough. I just felt like reaching out to everyone.... GO GO GADGET EXTENDO ARM!!! *reaches out arm...* Oh... I don't... HAVE... super extendable arms...."

So now you know what a Reitannite is. If you think you are a Reitannite, join the club! :)

Come check out ~Reitanna-Seishin, here on deviantART! (Click on the following link to go to her deviantART home page.)…

Come check out ~Reitanna-Seishin on YouTube! (Click on the following link to go to her YouTube account.)…
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kiwiikat770 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  New Deviant
I wish I'm good at digital art
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
it just takes practice
Okidasshine Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2015  New Deviant Student General Artist
hay Reitanna I was wondering how you  got background noise out of audacity would it be OK if  you did a super cool video on you tube because it's noooooottt easy to do it here (must read in accent beyond her range of hearing) PORTAL 2   
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
go to filters and click "noise removal"
Midna2004 Featured By Owner Edited Jul 14, 2015
Im only 11 so school is realy my top priority but im going to make fan art and join the club soon btw im new here
Mallorymonster Featured By Owner May 1, 2015  Professional Writer
Awwwww I wish I could donate but I cant, Im only 11.Sweetie Belle triste Applejack (Sad) Plz Rainbow sad Twilight (Sad) Plz Pinkie (Sad) Plz Applebloom (sad with rain) plz 
Mallorymonster Featured By Owner May 1, 2015  Professional Writer
I am so happy that you are playing spookys house of jump scares! And OMG I joined you!! Pinkie Crazy  
Sonicjonathansonic40 Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
When are you going to do an audio drama of Return of the bakers and Broken Tiara or inkies birthday??.
SebastianPowerPuff Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
sorry i havent posted in a while
perverted-thoughts Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks For Accepting me :iconmakasmileplz:
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